Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Life. WTF? It's such a strange bizarre ever changing clusterfuck of events. One minute it makes perfect sense the next it leaves you lost in the dark. We go through all these ridiculous cycles. Some last for days, some weeks, some months, years or decades. And it's like they're all embedded and nested within each other like some programming language of life. We're all just spinning through time and space. But we're also spinning through our lives and our emotions. Years of happiness come, years of sadness go. Like the tides flowing in and out. One moment you're the happiest you've ever been, but that moment is part of another long not quite so happy moment, that's part of a slightly longer really happy moment, that's part of a much longer sad moment. When the smallest of happy moments passes you think of the sad moment that has prevailed outside of that smaller moment. And when that passes you think up to the next level. Add to that our minds that twist reality around and run off with it in another direction making you think things that aren't real or denounce things that are. There's times I feel like I know what the hell I'm doing but overall in the bigger picture I have no fucking clue. So here I sit perplexed by life trying to remind myself that everything I feel from moment to moment is just that. A moment. And all moments pass. Our life is not one solid thing. It's one mixed up mess up moments that flow back and forth and spin around each other. So whenever sad remember it's just a moment and it too shall pass. But whenever you're happy, enjoy it. Enjoy it like it's the last time you'll ever be happy and let nothing ruin it because that moment too shall pass. Random ramblings. I'm in a mood. — feeling perplexed.